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A little bit of a San hard thoughtā¦maybe, sort of, kind of (MDNI)
Okay so for some reason Coachella San still has me in a chokehold, almost two months later and I just had to get this off my chest, because this has been on my mind for a while and itās driving me crazy. Also this will probably be the only time I post something like this, unless I feel very strongly about it.
Looking at these photos that he posted on Instagram, just fills my mind up with thoughts of littering his chest and abs with hickeys.
Like just imagine, you on top of San, straddling him as you sucked at the skin of his chest, all the while San below you -Iād like to imagine that heās very vocal with this type of intimacy, because we love men who are vocal- is letting out low groans and maybe along with the occasional whine of your name. Maybe he would even buck his hips, especially as you traveled down his toned stomach and got closer to the band of his underwear, because the smallest things you do can get him so worked up.
#kpop#ateez#choi san#hard thoughts#I just like to say that I have never ever had like an actual hard thought before believe it or not#san is just a special case#youāre either the biggest soft stan or the biggest hard stand there is no in between when it comes to this man#also this may be start of san brainrot#I might delete this when I when wake up#I should probably go to bed itās currently 3:44 am#what I am still doing up???#also i start my period like some time this week so thatās probably why I felt the very strong urge to write this#also Iām sorry if this is a bit cringy I donāt usually write things like this#so sorry about that#anyway im gonna stop rambling now and go to sleep#san hard thoughts#choi san hard thoughts
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Literally no thoughts just Gojo after your wedding carrying you over the threshold of your hotel room. Youāre not leaving for your honeymoon until the morning but he nearly trips on the doorframe in his haste.
āYou really donāt need to carry meāā
āBut itās tradition, we need to consummate the marriage!ā he insists. Within seconds his lips are against yours and heās fumbling with the light switch, and you finally swat his hand away and just beg him to take you to the bed.
He works the zipper of your dress down, part of him sad that heās not going to see you in this gorgeous gown again, but then it reveals your white lace lingerie and the groan he lets out is broken and guttural and desperate.
This is far from the first time heās seen you like this, but thereās something about this moment here and now that makes it so much more intense, so much more intimate and he just never wants to let you go.
āSatoru,ā you whisper, and his breath hitches.
He leans down to capture your lips in a kiss. āShh, I know. Just lemme take care of you, like I promised.ā
And when he sees the gold band on his fourth finger pressing into the skin of your hips as he sheaths himself inside of you, he nearly loses himself, sending up a prayer to whatever gods are listening that he can keep his promise to keep you safe and happy forever.
#Iām so drunk rn Iām sorry if this is incoherent#I just came home from a wedding and am feeling so sappy#also I have to be up tomorrow at 6am for work#canāt wait to be hungover š«¶š¼#anyway marrying Gojo would be amazing#I love him and I just wanna kiss him and hold him and let him know how special he is#oh god Iām gonna be so embarrassed and might delete this when I wake up#so revel in it now I guess?#idk itās probably not good lol#gojo x reader#Gojo Satoru x reader#gojo x reader fluff#Gojo x reader smut#Gojo Satoru x reader smut#jjk smut#gojo smut#jujutsu kaisen smut#jujutsu kaisen#Gojo Satoru#jujutsu kaisen x reader
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secret of us (deluxe) event
HAPPY SECRET OF US DELUXE DROP :333333333 to celebrate (bc that's so true ruined my life) we're doing a mini event!! Drop a character + song/number in the inbox and I'll write a little short smth based on the character n song!! Happy requesting <3
Track List
Felt Good About You - Tim Drake
Risk - Cass Cain
Blowing Smoke - Simon Riley
I Love You, Iām Sorry - Damian Wayne
us. - Carlos Oliveria
Let It Happen - Jason Todd
Tough Love - Ada Wong
I Knew It, I Know You - Tim Drake
Gave You I Gave You I - Hajime Hinata
Normal Thing - Konig
Good Luck Charlie - Dick Grayson
Free Now - Jason Todd
Close to You - Bruce Wayne
Cool - Dick Grayson
Thatās So True - Jason Todd
I Told You Things - Leon Kennedy
Packing It Up - Saiki Kusuo
posting starts Oct 28th!! Ty for requesting <3
#the next time one of you freaks send me a request twice in 30 minutes while i'm knocked out im deleting both and blocking you#my reblog literally said 'if i wake up n none of you requested i will cry' WHEN I WAKE UP. that post was queued.#you can't complain abt writers not wanting to post anymore if that's how you're treating them#I don't take requests specifically for this reason. don't ruin this for everyone#tim drake x reader#damian wayne x reader#bruce wayne x reader#dick grayson x reader#cassandra cain x reader#hajime hinata x reader#ā¾.event#stephanie brown x reader#saiki k x reader#jason todd x reader#leon kennedy x reader#carlos oliveria x reader#simon riley x reader#konig x reader#this might be my last event in a while but shhh#im impatient sorry chat HAPPY REQUESTING
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hollow heads style :D
its kinda huanization but not really? fejkfhjeskes i just wanted an excuse to draw like. actual human shaped characters cus all this stickman fanart is making me rusty š
#pawu.art#i might delete this later idk.. idk if i liked how it turned out tbh#welp if it has umm 10 likes when i wake up then ill leave it be lol#ava#animator vs animation#ava tsc#ava the second coming#ava tco#ava the chosen one#ava the dark lord#ava tdl#ava dark lord#ava chosen one
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i was going to make this into a bigger cleaner piece but i really couldnt get natsu right so ignore the way he looks and look at lucy <33 (drawing kisses is my worst nightmare)
#i might wake up tomorrow and really hate this and delete it#anyway when will they kiss#fairy tail#nalu#lucy heartfilia#natsu dragneel#the colours are so bright sorry i didnt focus too much on colouring it right
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bloodbrothers
#i don't really like these doodles soooo i might delete it fr when i wake up.........or draw smth else#GOOD NIGHT <3#my art#diaz brothers#life is strange 2#lis2#daniel diaz#sean diaz
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Eddie,
Dear Eddie,
Eddie fucking Munson,
Yeah. Hello. It's me. Steve Harrington.
Jesus. This is so weird.
Max just got out of the hospital today. It's surreal to think that it's been six months since Spring Break and she's only getting out today. The doctors said there's gonna be a long road ahead of her but that's okay, right? What's important is that there's a road ahead of her.
Anyway, the day Max got Vekna-ed Vecna-ed (Dustin just corrected my spelling. I think Vekna sounds better.), she wrote us letters. Just in case sheā¦ bites the dust. When she woke up, she told us we could read it if we wanted. I didnāt have the heart to tell her that I burned it the moment she woke up. She told me (Just me specifically) that I should try it. When I asked who I should write to, she smiled and started humming a Metallica song. Which is fucking wild that I even knew that she was humming Disposable Heroes.
Robin told me I wasnāt good at dealing with my grief. That instead of letting the wound heal, I just let it scab and hurt. Whichā I hate the word grief. Because I hate grief, you know?
You donāt know this, but Barbara Holland died in my backyard and Nancyā¦ Nancy still mourns her to this day. I donāt think sheāll ever stop mourning her. A few months back, we talked. Dude, I know what youāre going to say and No, we are not getting back together. I let her smash bottles of beer in my empty pool. We cried and screamed until we were both exhausted. I asked her this question thatās been running through my mind for months now.
What the hell is grief?
Nancy smiled at me. She told me that she had a hard time trying to learn what grief is, that at first she thought it was anger and disappointment and hatred. But she told me (after a few minutes because Nancy also loves dramatic pauses. I think you guys have that in common), that itās actually just love. Just love. With no place else to go.
And you know what? Fuck that. Sheās the smartest person I know but she was wrong. Fuck that.
This grief I have for you, it canāt be love right? How could I love someone I barely even knew? Itās nothing but disappointment that I couldnļæ½ļæ½ļæ½t have done more. Itās nothing but pure fucking rage that you didnāt fucking listen to me when I told you to run. Itās nothing but hatred from the fact that you did this when you couldāve lived.
I donāt care if you felt like a coward. You shouldāve been a coward because at least you would still be alive. I wouldnāt be writing this letter if you were alive.
I hate you. I goddamn fucking hate you for every decision youāve made that night.
But Eddieā¦
Eddie, I need you to get up and tell me what to do. I am begging you to get up and tell me what to do. I donāt care how you do it, just do it. I donāt know what to do. I donāt know what to do without you. Which is fucking ridiculous, because I didnāt know you. But I need you here. Right now.
Weāre done with the Upside Down forever. Weāre done with it. Everyoneās moving on, moving forward. And Iā¦ I still sleep with your vest. How could I be sad over something I never even had in the first place?
Robinās giving me weird looks. Sheās telling me that I could talk to her about anything. I know. I know I can. But I wanted you to be the first to know. Apparently, I am gay. Maybe half gay because I like both. Fucking Eddie Munson, youāre dead and youāre still giving me a sexuality crisis.
I thinkā¦ I think I am mourning the fact that we couldāve been friends, and if I am being delusional, maybe even more. Dustin wonāt stop talking about you these days. I think itās his way of keeping you alive. If Iām being honest, I hate it. Because I am falling in love with a memory.
Iā¦ I miss you. I wish there was a way I could send this to wherever you are, so you could write back and tell me that itās going to be okay. That someday I would forgive myself for everything I did and did not do, that someday it wouldnāt hurt this much anymore.
Max was right. Iāll write more in the future.
I wish you were here.
Sincerely,
Yours,
Fuck you,
Steve Harrington.
06/13/86
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Steve laughs as he carefully closes the old letterā stained with tears and age, some crumpling and tearing on the edgesā and slips it back to the envelope. The envelope is yellow at the edges, showing its true age.
āGod, I was so mad.ā Steve says, his hand finding the cold headstone. His fingers tracing the name inscribed on the marble. After a few years, after the town of Hawkins eventually forgot everything, the Party got Eddie a headstone in the cemetery. Itās a funeral ten years too late, but it brought closure to everyone that needed it. Wayne, included.
āYou want me to read my newest letter?ā Steve asks the empty space. Steve takes the newer envelope from the picnic basket he packed, opening it carefully and taking a deep breath.
āDearest Eddie,ā Steve smiles at the stone. He thinks of Eddie, the only image he always conjures when he misses him. He thinks of Eddie, hair wet and face grimy from having fought bats for a person he barely knew. He thinks back to that Eddie, big brown eyes and teasing smile.
He looks down at the letter and continues reading, āI am writing this letter before I go visit you. Spring has been good to us. Iāve been trying to plant more and I think itās going great. Dustinās been bugging me to get some exercise. Can you believe that? He said itāll be good for my old bones. Or some shit like that. Heās still a disrespectful little shit. I do find joy over the fact that Edward is a jock. Dustin Henderson? Has a jock kid? Itās the best thing in my life. El loves joking about it. Weāre just thankful the kid doesn't have powers.ā
āThe Byers-Wheelers are doing pretty good too. Will sent us this really funny picture of Mike in a tutu as the twins practice beside him. It feels like only yesterday Will came out to Robin and me. You remember that right? I think I wrote it in one of my letters. Will still tells me that you and him couldāve been really good friends, and I believe him.ā
āThe Sinclairs are planning to travel across the country this Summer. We did have a few laughs when the āWinnebagoā dream came up. Elenaās going through a rebellious teenage phase, and I just think itās funny that she stole their car to drive to me. She really is her motherās daughter.ā
āAs for Argyle and Jon, last I heard they were in Montana. Theyāll come back down for the holidays, but they live their lives on the down low. Aside from Jonās very active instagram account, they do write through emails. Robin and Nance are in Europe right now. They wanted me to come, but you know I canāt leave Arwen. She could be forty and married, and Iād still stay by her side. She has this concert coming up, and I want to stay and make sure it goes well.ā
āI still think itās funny that I adopted her at a random adoption office, because it still feels like she chose me rather than I chose her. Sometimes, I still let myself be delusional. If I squint hard enough, I could see it. With the way she plays the guitar, or the way she talks nerdy with her uncles. Itās like you were right there when she was growing up, right there beside me, helping raise her. Now that Arwenās older, she understands it now. Why I never got married.ā
āItās been 36 years since you left. It doesnāt feel that long ago. I know you know this already, but sometimes I still reach out for your vest at night. It doesnāt smell like you anymore, not at all. I still remember it though. Like cigarettes and weed and the damn forest. Sometimes Iāll get a random whiff of something similar in public, something remotely close, and Iāll smile. Because I just know thatās you, being a creep and checking in on us.ā
āIn the hundreds of letters Iāve written in the last few years, I donāt think Iāve ever said it.ā
Steve chokes as he reads the next few lines, āI think Iāll be okay, Eddie. I am sorry it took me this long to say it, but I hope youāre resting well now. I think weāll meet again in a few more years, maybe another 20? Whatās another 20, right? I can wait. When we meet again, we can spend an eternity together if youāll have me. Weāll do everything we want to do. Justā¦ wait for me, okay, Eds?ā
āIāll be back soon. Love always, Steve.ā Steve slowly closes the letter, slipping it back to the envelope.
Steve sits in silence. Just listening to the birds chirp, just basking in the sunlight.
āDad!ā Steve turns to see Arwen climbing the hills, waving her hands as she jogs over to him.
āHi, peanut.ā He greets her when sheās finally close enough.
āHi. I am sorry to interrupt.ā She looks at the headstone with pain before turning to him, āAre you almost done? We have to be back to Indianapolis by four.ā
āYeah, I think I am done. I can come back some other time.ā
Arwen helps him up, his knees creaking with age, āGive us a few more minutes, hm? Iāll follow you.ā
Arwen nods, smiling before turning to the grave, patting it gently like itās an actual person, āI promise to visit some other time, Eddie. Iāll play you this new song Iām writing.ā She kisses Steveās cheeks before running back to the car.
āI wish I could stay longer. But sheās got that concert thing. There wonāt be an actual concert if sheās not there.ā Steve chuckles.
āSee you later, Eds.ā Steve lifts kisses his fingertips before pressing it on the headstone.
The trees shake with a gust of wind. He smiles, letting his eyes flutter shut as he feels the wind against his skin.
Steve opens his eyes, waving at the headstone one last time.
Edward Joseph Munson
1965 - 1986
All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given us.
#tw mcd#tw major character death#also this got way too sad than what i planned#so i might delete it when i wake up and suddenly hate it#lol#steddie#steve harrington x eddie munson angst#steddie ficlet#steve harrington x eddie munson
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slooper!!!!!
small doodle i decided 2 digitalize
goodnightyy now :3 queueueing tjis weee
#i dont think bart would snore but i do think he drools#this makes sense#i sweeear#im having a moment where im just like damnā¦ppl like my chibi art more than my regular art#ehich is kinda downer till i realize OMG PPL LIKE MY ART!!!:D!!!!!!#ty ppl who like my art it makes me :3 makes me rlly happy!!!#my thoughts r like i might as well post my art even the 1s i dont like as much bc some1 will like it i think! then i try my hardest not#2 delete it lol#usually the art i dont rlly want ppl 2 see tho i just dont tag @ all#which always makes it scary when ppl do find it cause like WOAH ok skdhkskjcks notes on old posts is like the same thinf#idk y im typing about this stry im sleepyyy#bart finally sleeps 4 half an hr after rolling & wiggling 4 hrs b4#then he wakes up & just enters daydreaming land idk#brrrrtgbnnnnbbbgfg aasaaaaaaaaaa#bart allen#puppee art#queue#or scedrulee?? im choosing a tando. m tome hehehehe
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Stop saying Isaac is āsad and lonelyā based on the pictures
Iām super excited about Isaacās storyline in s2 but iām already starting to get a little annoyed about people feeling sorry for him saying āhe is all by himself ā¹ļø he is so aloneā just because he isnāt coupled up in the pictures. You have no idea what his storyline will be yet as it is not in the comics and it sucks that just because Alice has said he is aspec/arospec that you are already projecting that means he is going to be alone or lonely and that that is something to be pitied. Feeling lonely or confused may very well be part of his storyline but its not fair to assume that aspec/arospec=alone and lonely.There are many other character who are not in couples and no one is saying this about them. Only Isaac.
romantic relationships are not everything-some people are happily unpartnered, some aspecs/arospecs are in relationships or qpps or a variety of other situations, also maybe he is demi, you literally have no idea and yall making it seem like being ace or aroace or aro is a sad life SUCKS to see. Yes feeling isolated or like we are different can be PART of the experience but itās not fair to assume that from just this picture. Or assume that because he is crying itās he realized he is aroace (yes people are saying this on twitter) when he could be crying for any number of reasons because he is a whole person outside of his sexuality. The point of my rant is you donāt know anything from the pictures and the fact that thats your first assumption is hurtful. So from an ace heartstopper fan, please stop and just wait to see how is storyline is and be conscious of how you talk about him once it airs. Thanks
#heartstopper#asexuality#ace#isaac heartstopper#maybe its just me but literally every time a picture is released there is a flood of people saying poor isaac and it really bothers me#aroace#aromantic#i might delete this when i wake up but im angry rn
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had a realization that's making me insane but we as a fandom weren't angry enough abt sunshades
also, this is entirely related, so I'm dragging them here too, but the voltron fandom was not angry enough abt Shiro's sudden gayness
now, the similarities are these:
both were retconed gay during the second half of their series
both were given their "endgame" romantic interest at the very end of their series (yes I know TOA exists now, but it came out in 2016, 2 years after BOO)
both fandoms became really weird abt those who dared to have shipped the character with a girl (Nico was canonically gay for longer than Shiro was in their respective media, so it's very rare to see those old ships, but they exist all the same)
both fandoms were all too happy to start extreme shipping them with their last minute love interest (the voltron fandom latched to Adam so hard it makes the sunshades seem tame, Curtis way less so)
the differences:
the voltron fandom should've been angry bc Shiro hadn't had any buildup as a gay character (whatever shippers saw notwithstanding), the problem being that if the show had gone with it's original Shallura plans (I saw this in like a commentary on how the show got made), they would've had to make someone else queer (for bait reasons), and they couldn't make hunk queer cause they did the whole thign with Shay, and Pidge was the youngest so like,,, they couldn't make keith queer cause he's the only "white" character and therefore has to be the token straight protag, and if they made Lance queer without makign klance happen I think something would've exploded.
so last minute gay shiro, burry your gays trope included! but oh, don't worry, he gets married to this random two seconds background character in the end!!
the PJO fandom, on the other hand, went through more than half of HOO watching Nico and Jason be like thatTM and then just, acepted will? the same ppl who tell you valdangelo wouldn't happen cause they had only one interaction? those ppl??
what, they just took the 1.5 bit at the VERY END of BOO and ran with it? I know lack of representation was a lot worse back then, but if that thing came out now I don't trust y'all to call it out like you should
like, I remember spending that whole scene being like "who the fuck's this guy" cause I didn't register background characters unless they were plot relevant, and nothing about that scene was all that romantic either
it makes me so angry, and when they announced the show I hoped they'd make it as close to the books as possible bc then maybe more ppl would see it two, but apparently Riordan added to the first series post-fact? and the tv series is already making changes?? and they'll probably work sunshades into it earlier bc of TSATS but gods, even if they don't it might still not happen, bc y'all just settle for scraps.
anyway, sorry for the rant, I jsut wanted to get it off my chest, and sorry if I offended y'all, I just think you deserved better.
#pjo hoo#pjo fandom#nico di angelo#will solace#voltron fandom#voltron legendary defender#voltron legendary disappointment#voltron legendary queer bait#takashi shirogane#adam voltron#curtis voltron#sky rants#I might delete this when I wake up tomorrow#just saying
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I'm conflicted about if I should push through finishing art comm or sleep
Have 3hrs of sleep or none? š¤ (I have class tomorrow)
#sleep deprive thoughts#randomapple thoughts#yesterday and teh day befroe that and teh day before that and tha....#i tried to finish comm but i ended up eaking up with my tablet on the floor (in other words#i fell asleep)#surprised i havent broke my glasses yet from falling asslep while drawing#i rememebr waking up and reading my answers for my assignment and it made absolutely no sense#i fell asleep doing ky assignment and honestly im glad i fell asleep befroe i passed that mess lol#might regeret this later when i#and delete it#anwyays ill try to draw and see i#what happenes#although it usually ends up ugly and i ahve to redo it all over again#okie maybe i should jsut sleep cause imma ahve to redo it again when its ugly cause im too sleepy to keep my eys#open#who needs to be drunk when sleep deprivation is already as bad if not worse lol
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Me today
#help#i might delete this#also I'll be going to sleep soon#when i wake up this feature will be gone probably#sad#boop#meme#not art
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youāll never guess who the blurred out blond guy is
Update: The finished artwork has been posted!
#hint: itās will#wip bc my apple pencil died#i still felt like posting it though idk#might delete it when i wake up#nico di angelo#nico di angelo fanart#solangelo fanart#solangelo#will solace#will solace fanart#pjo#percy jackson fanart#tsats fanart#iykyk#pjoverse#pjo hoo toa#pjo fanart#pjo hoo toa tsats#digital artist#ibispaint art#im too broke for anything else š#artists on tumblr#digital art#fan art#my art#art
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The world is such a mess right now... I keep hearing about that horrifying hurricane which is getting even more dangerous that'll hit Florida (the name escapes me, I'm sorry), there were some AWFUL floods here where I live and not to mention all the other stuff that's just been going on in the world...
I hope y'all are okay, wherever or whoever you may be.
#this is such a corny post#i might delete it when i wake up...#but i really do mean it#ā„ļø girlie says
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i find the way cannibalism and love, these two wildly different concepts, can be so intertwined with one another to be such a beautiful thing. the way that theres this need- this desire to be so incredibly close with another person. an intimacy that you cannot achieve simply by being near a person or even through sex. but yet still this carnal yearning to become indefinitely close with someone. it is acceptance that youll lose possession of your own body because youre freely giving it to this other person. its the sacrifice of your mortal form in exchange for eternal, impossible closeness.Ā
theres just something so morbidly captivating about that.Ā
it describes how all-consuming love can be- the craze and obsession that can come with it. when i say that, i dont mean in the stalker sense, i mean always having this person somewhereĀ in your mind. thinking about them and how theyre doing, when youll next see them again, if theyre thinking about you and getting the same burning in their heart as you get when you think of them. the pain of needing to be with another soul in their entirety.
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the need to talk about Alan Wake all the time has become a personal issue
#Alan wake is in no way an unpopular game#but same with the original and with the other remedy games#I feel like I got. wayyyyy too invested#bc Iāve skimmed through some playthroughs and every time I end up stopping#bc the gamer doesnāt stop to read anything etc.#which is fine!! however these games have consumed my every thought so I need that same level of obsession#might delete#im also a completionist when it comes to games. donāt give a shit about gameplay. love information and organization#alan wake 2#maybe after my intense passion currently for Alan Wake or Control dies down Iāll have more criticisms#but considering Iāve been a massive Control fan since its release I fear this games were specifically made to appeal to me#*ignore my bad spelling/grammar I donāt want to delete and redo my tags š
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